I am doing a lot of mind-body therapy at the moment, following the teachings of Dr Sarno, author of The Divided Mind and inventor of the term Tension Myositis Syndrome. It’s fascinating stuff. Basically, the idea is that many chronic conditions are the result of holding in, or rather repressing, difficult emotions, especially rage/anger. The process is unconscious.
You have to list all the things in your life, past and present, that make you angry or cause other negative emotions such as sadness, fear, etc. My list is very long –and I haven’t even finished!
I have realised I am criminally envious of and bitter towards two Christians I know. These two seem to live the perfect life and it really gets to me. It pains me to admit it but I really do not like one of them. It is hard to say it out loud but I think this person is spoilt and they have made me feel like some people in the past have made me feel: lesser, lowly and a bit grubby. I appreciate that that might be more MY problem than theirs.
I am seething with vitriol right now! It’s not a nice feeling but at least I’m being honest with myself. This person, of course, has no idea I feel this way and, as it happens, I have not seen them in real life for months and months. But, boy, do they like to flaunt their lives on social media! And hopefully they will never know of my dislike. These feelings may pass now I’ve acknowledged them.
Well, that’s my vitriolic posting for the evening. I think I feel better for it!