I may not write about my developing faith much here. This is not because I am shallow nitwit material but
it still feels private to me.
My ‘journey’ life is divided into two parts: the spiritual part and the church part, and it is mostly the latter I write about here.
Now I have been involved with My Church for some time I am fascinated by the interpersonal shenanigans.
I am watching the pastors! Who lives what he preaches? Who’s ‘in’? Who’s ‘out’. Yup, sad to say, the world of My Church is a microcosm of our wider world.
I suspect there is a Pastor 3 Fan Club going on. Am I in this fan club? I love his sermons, approach, wise words and so on. But I don’t kid myself that I know the man. Preaching is a performance and it’s easy to use the stage to connect with many but be alone/separate and self-protective afterwards, just as many rock stars and actors are… Does Pastor 3 practise what he preaches? I don’t know. I DO feel very protective of Pastor 3 though. If someone teases him or is snide (men can be cruel) I feel annoyed. There was this new guy in church today, good looking, young, and he was making a few snide remarks. I felt like decking the dropkick! Why turn up if you’re just going to bitch throughout the service?
I have known Pastor 2 the longest. He is thoroughly nice bloke, sincere, humble. Just lovely.
Pastor 1, it turns out, has a reputation for being something of a mystery! He has worked at national and international level – a high flyer. A friendis a huge fan of his. She says he has transformed our church, made it more inclusive and that we would not have the divorce group if he had not come along. I think he must have seen and heard some harrowing things over the years so I suspect he does have enormous strength.
I’ll continue to observe.